Can i ask a question please?

I have being struggling with everythings since the 14th jan this year 2011 this was the day my husband of 3 and half years was arrested for indecent exposure it was at start of a nightmare. I feel it all my fault I have been a horrible person and never start letting all my angry out at him, he is a very calm and pleasant man would never do anything wrong and do anything for anyone always there for me and my children and i made his life hell i blaming myself all the time. He has had counselling and it came out he was escaping from everything and away of not coming home. The worse thing he was seen by to girls walking past his van and they where only 13years old he is now on the sex offenders list for 5 years how do i live with this i cant cope. He never done anything wrong in is live.